Suicide..A permanent solution to a temporary problem..=(

On the morning of Tuesday September 14th, my sweet sweet cousin, Tonya Milobar, sadly took her own life, she left behind kids and a life =( I am still in shock, and i keep asking myself is there anything i could have done, or said? Could i have maybe talked to her more and spent more time with her and let her know more often how loved she was? Just last month we drove around in her car and talked about guys and her kids and life..and now shes gone, i miss her so much =( And i cant stop thinking that maybe i could have helped =( But its to late now, and i will see you in the next life Tonya, I love you and miss you! =(

Best Friends:)

So i have this friend, no..shes more than a friend, shes my BEST friend, Shes my Sister:) I laugh more with this girl than anyone else, she knows more about me than anyone else, probably even more than i know about myself, the first time i met this girl.. i wouldnt even talk to her..and now, when we are together we are like inseperable. we always tell eachother everything, and can spend hours on the phone everyday talking about life, and of course guys, we always laugh, and we have the best inside jokes, and more inportantly, we get eachother. We can walk to the park and spend hours just laughing and talking and taking a MILLION pictures, we always spend like 5 hours before each dance just to get ready, and we laugh and just dance and have fun, and when my mom lets me take the truck we even go driving like crazy teens, and we take a million pictures then to, and blast the music and make the car "dance". we can talk for hours on the phone, we have midnight phone calls when one of us cant sleep, and we talk about guys of whatever, and then theres the 3 way calls with guys just to make us happy, and the texting for eachother. Basically, all my good memories, i share with this girl, we are the best of friends:)

Last Days with Tallin a.k.a Elder Lotu

So Saturday August 21st I got to spend with Tali at Ariels in Spring Creek, We had a blast! earlier that day I got to go to the Movies with Tallin for the last time before he left, and then hang out with him more...it was so much fun but then i kept thinking of how this was one of the last days i got to spend with him! The Thursday before that i also got to play fugitive with him, and Kailee and Kassi and them, it was the first time i had ever played and it was SO MUCH FUN! haha. So Sunday the 22nd Tali and i got up and went to Ariels ward, then at 11 Tallin came and picked us up, to go to his ward for his farewell talk we got sucked into singing in the youth choir with him, it was amazing though and im so glad we did, when it got time for him to talk..it was an amazing talk, SO amazing..I cried like a freaking baby...then we went to class with Kailee and Kassi..it was the most interesting sunday school ever! The teacher told us if we didnt understand the plan of salvation we might as well shoot ourselves cause we have no purpose in life! Haha it was indeed and interesting class! Then we went over to his house to get ready for the dinner they were having for him that night, I LOVE the Church house! So we got to do all that fun stuff! We just hung out and laughed, played some volleyball, jumped on the trampoline, drove around, walked to the marina, and swung on the swings and just laughed. It was one of the greatest nights of my life! Even though i knew it was the last night i would spend with my best friend Tallin before he left to Fiji..It was a great time..we just talked and laughed and we all just had a good time:) The hardest part was the last hug when he dropped me off and said goodbye..i cried like a freaking baby! but im happy for him:)

On our way to Bree's house, Kassi was driving, we had the music blasted we just laughed the whole time! :)

Kailee!!!!!! Haha this girl makes me laugh!

Kassi and I, what a crazy driver! hahaha Just kidding!

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Kailee showing off her stuff on out walk to the Marina

                                      

Our last group picture with Tallin

Tallin and I as we were dropping Tali off, we decided we needed to get some pictures.

Tallin and I, our last picture before he left for good, I miss this Elder..

So all in all, that sunday i will have to say was one of the happiest, sad, amazing, unbelievable, funnest days of my life, i got to spend it with the amazing Church family, and 4 of my best friends...it was the perfect goodbye for the next 2 years..:)

Sorry Its been so long! So much has been happening! Life is definately crazy. Lol. So let me try to update you...Since my last post..there has been Another dance, One of my best friends (Tallin Church) left on his mission to Fiji, My family life..is well something to be desired, and so much more going on!